“In the day when I
cried out, You answered me, and made me bold with strength in my soul.” – Psalm
138:3
God spoke to me in April 2010 that I
have to marry a girl according to His will and from there on we waited at God’s
feet to show a girl according to His will. Nearly after two years God showed
His will and God also spoke to my parents asking them to go forward. So I was
engaged on July 2012 and my marriage date was fixed on August 2012.
Like everyone I started talking to
my fiancée once I got engaged and our relationship started well. God told me
that I have to take care like a child since she was a innocent girl. So I
prayed to God to give me His grace and started talking to her.
As days progressed the people around
her and some of her close relatives started to speak negatively about our
family based on the way we spoke to them in certain issues. This brought fear
into the hearts of my fiancée and she could not believe the words which I spoke
to her. So she used to cry at times and our relationship had lost peace.
At the same time some of the married
people whom I know closely were going through the path of divorce. When I
thought about them I had a fear that my family life will also end in divorce. As
I gave my heart and mind to this negative thought, fear was tormenting me day
and night even though my marriage was finalized according to God’s will.
Finally my marriage day came and I
prayed well for that. As I stood at the marriage ceremony my heart and mind was
filled with great peace. I stood there with a great joy and the ceremony got
over.
Soon after the ceremony got over I
went to my wife’s house. Once I had entered there my mind started to recollect
the incidents in which my wife’s relatives spoke negatively about my family and
then the same fear which had tormented me before the marriage slowly begun to arise
in my mind.
One side I was so happy that I had
fulfilled God’s will in my marriage and on the other side I gave way to the
fear which was brought by devil into my heart. I stayed in my wife’s house for
two days without any peace at all. Throughout the day I felt like someone
telling in my mind that my family life will end in divorce. I know it was devil’s
voice but I could not stop myself listening to it.
After two days I returned to my home
with my wife. I used to speak to her happily so that she believes that I was
normal. Once I returned to my home again I was tormented by the fear of divorce
and my mind automatically begun to think about the solution to get out of the
fear. The only solution my mind and heart got was committing suicide. Suicidal
thoughts automatically filled my mind and in all ways I felt that I had no way
of escape.
Soon my wife’s relatives came to our
home to make her get settled. Outwardly I used to behave normal to them but I
was greatly tormented in my mind. They had left after a day and I still remember
that afternoon.
I could not control my emotions at
all and so I ran to the feet of Jesus Christ in prayer. I told Him the way in
which I am suffering and asked Him to remove all the negative thoughts that arise
in my mind. You might not believe it. I just prayed with tears for ten minutes
and then I went to sleep.
When I got up in the evening, I was
filled with a divine peace in my heart. All the thoughts about divorce and
suicide went away and I felt like my mind and heart was washed and perfectly
clean. Jesus Christ heard my prayer and removed all the fears and suicidal
thoughts. He gave me His strength to move on.
God’s divine peace is leading me
even today. After that day I had never got any negative thoughts. Nearly 11 months
had passed from the day I got married. I can say that God has taken control of
my marriage life and we were living in great peace.
Jesus Christ has given me a perfect
and loving wife. Nothing happened in my life as I had feared. On that day I
made a simple prayer. Through His abundant grace Jesus Christ heard my prayer
and lifted me. Even today He is leading us safely.
My dear young friends, today you
might be filled with an unknown fear about your studies, future, relationship
or job. You might try your level best to come out of it but yet you are facing
failures after failures. Today go to Jesus Christ in prayer. He will pour out
His grace upon you and He will give you His strength and He will save you.
Today Jesus Christ is promising you,
“My dear Child, nothing that you fear will happen in your life. I will give you
My covenant of peace and I will lead you safe. Fear not for I am with you to
protect you and carry you.”
Whatever be the tough situation you
might be in, just give it to Jesus Christ. He will hear your prayers and will
lead you safe. You will live.
There were certain times in my life
I heard God speaking to me in a tough way when I disobeyed His word. In what
ways I disobeyed God’s word?
- To be continued in GHG - 14
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