“What
is man that You are mindful of him, And the son of man that You visit
him?” – Psalm 8:4
Lovely Lord, when I see the little
daughter that you have given us, the only question that is getting raised in my
mind is, “Who am I that You are mindful of me?” There were so many who have no food,
shelter, job, studies and good life. You have given me all these. But what I
have done for You?
I have did my best to put Your Name
to shame in so many ways but yet You lifted me through Your grace whenever I
did something wrong.
I did so many things against You.
Actually You are the One who should have left me when I committed those sins.
But I could not understand why so many humans hated me and left me all alone. When
they did that, I had no qualities to put it in front of them to defend I am
good. If I could not do that with ordinary men how could ever I defend myself
in front of You, who is so Holy. Though You are the only One I had in my life, I
thought you will be the next to leave me.
To my surprise You had never left
me. You stood by my side and through Your amazing grace You loved and lifted
me. There were times I prayed to You to punish and kill me but You behaved like
You had never heard those prayers. I was looking at my past but You looked at
my future for which You has so many plans.
You were my only comfort on those
days. All I pleaded to you was death but You carried me softly in Your gentle
arms. Slowly You healed all my wounds. So many times I thought about my mistakes
and felt ashamed but not even once You spoke to me about my past wrong doings. You
had forgiven me through Your blood and You made me to stand for Your glory. You
are my comfort and joy.
One fine day, I thought I should not
ask You any more blessings because I felt I was not worthy to ask You anything.
When my parents started to find a bride for me, I gave everything into your
hands and waited for Your will.
I had no expectations for I know You
are the only One who knows what is best for me. Though waiting for two years
seems to be a longer period, You gave Your strength to withstand all kinds of
temptations. Though at times I hurried to take wrong decisions You stopped me
and put me in the right path.
You proved that You are the only One
who knows what is best for me and at what time I should get the best by giving
me a wonderful wife at Your Own time. Many closed ones came to our marriage and
went but You never left us alone. You took the position of Father and to this
day You are doing everything for us.
When troubles and problems came, You
were our shelter. When pains and sorrows filled, You were our joy. For the past
two years, You were leading and protecting us in Your path with peace and joy.
Many people think that we are a best
couple and so only we are having a good marriage life. They might not know that
we are having a peaceful marriage life because we have with us the best God who
is a best Father and Shepherd.
I never pleaded much for a child to
You. But yet my wife cried to You to give a baby soon. You know the thoughts
that I had in my mind at that time. One day my wife told me that she is
pregnant. I could not believe that at all. Your love and grace was far much
beyond my understanding.
As days progressed many loved ones
who prayed for us told that God will give us a son. You know that my desire for
several years was to have a girl baby. Once I had a faith that You will give me
a girl baby but later I felt that I was not worthy to have one and so I forgot
that desire.
As I heard the news that You have
given a child to us, I waited outside the labour ward anxiously. I remember the
moment in which my wife’s mother came out carrying a baby in her hands and said
to me, “It’s a girl baby.”
You filled my heart with so much joy
and happiness. You know that words can never describe my happiness that I had
on that moment not just because the baby and my wife were fine but because of
Your unending love that You have upon me.
Am I worthy Lord to have such a
blessing in my life? What will I do for you for all the things that You have
done so far and You are doing till this day? Who am I that You are mindful of
me?
As I placed all this questions to you
this day, You gave me just one reply. You said, “My Child, I love you so much.”
Thank You so much Jesus for Your
love, grace, protection and blessings. I have only one desire: Take my life and
use it for Your glory. Let Your light shine through my life. May I carry Your
comfort for those who are desperately in need of Your blessing.
Though I struggle to live a holy life, You
know that I love you so much Jesus. From the day I was born to this day You are
my comfort, joy and everything. Thanks a lot Jesus for everything and I Love
you lots.
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