“…by His light I walked through
darkness.” – Job 29:3
In the year 2002, God gave me an admission
in a government college to pursue my UG Engineering course. I felt so happy on
that day, when I got admitted to college because I knew very well that my
parents can’t afford to pay the fees of any private colleges. As I’ve already
completed my diploma, I was directly admitted into the second year.
We were admitted one week after
reopening of the classes. I was a bit afraid because the students studying
there were the toppers of that place. But on the other hand, I entered the
first day’s class with so much pride. Classes got over and as everyone was
leaving, I saw a very beautiful girl in that class.
As she was so beautiful, I got an
immediate attraction towards her. Since it was the first day, I just came out
of the class without thinking much about it. As days passed by, I came to know
that she is also a Christian and that she’s from a very rich family.
She had a friend who was also
beautiful. Somehow, I became a friend to her friend and our friendship was
going on well. One fine day, her friend asked me to try loving a girl of foreign
nationality. I casually told her that I knew none like that. Instantly she told
the name of the girl (who was her friend) who was studying in our class and
asked me to tell openly if I have any interest on her, so that she will make
her propose me the very next day.
I could not believe what she said. I
just laughed over her sayings, but she said it very seriously. Next day also
she insisted me to reply. At that time, I understood that it was a serious matter.
Now temptations began to rise in my heart prompting “Why can’t I go for it?”
One side, I was thinking about her
wealth and riches which were so high compared to our family. During that time
my father had a Bajaj scooter, whereas her family owned two cars. Our family
savings were in Hundreds but their savings were in Millions. Also her beauty
was incomparable with anyone I knew. I could understand the reality so
well, that I knew I would never get her.
But on the other side as I was undergoing
temptations, I wished to accept this. Whenever I lied in my bed, I used to get dreams
about that relationship and things like that. As I had great struggles in my
heart I took this matter to God in prayer and also to an experienced
Christian counsellor.
The counsellor advised me not to fall into the trap
and asked me to seek God for His guidance. The next few days, I waited at
God’s presence and one day God spoke to me saying, this relationship won’t even
last for few months and if I enter into this relationship I won’t complete my UG
degree.
I felt great peace in my heart when
God spoke to me. The very next day, I politely refused to her friend and also
insisted her not to speak talk on that matter anymore. The next day, the actual
girl came and said not to think about that matter anymore and asked me to be
casual.
Today as I write this, God has given
me His grace to pursue my doctorate degree. By God’s abundant grace I finished both
my U.G and P.G degree in first class.
What would have happened if I had
fallen in love with that girl during my college days? Surely I would not have
experienced the blessings that I have received today.
I am not a holy person; even after
this incident, I failed in so many things. But on that day, by God’s light I walked
through the darkness. Because of the counsel of Jesus Christ, I overcame
that temptation which might have cost my own future.
Even today, I thank God for helping
me to make that decision on that day, to come out of that temptation.
My dear young friends do not fall
into the trap of anyone. Even if you have already fallen in someone’s trap ask
Jesus Christ to help you; He will surely save you. Seek the face of Jesus
Christ; He is there to save you anytime.
There were times I made some silly
stupid prayers to which God has never responded and do you want to know what
lesson that I learnt through that?
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