By God's grace I
graduated from Karunya University. It was a wonderful feeling. My friends and class mates all had job offers
and they knew what to do next. I wanted to go back to Germany and continue my
Master Studies. Although I was assured a place in the university, there was an
opportunity to get a full scholarship, and I had applied for it. All through my
life GOD had been showering me with amazing grace and I thought I will surely
get the scholarship and wouldn’t be a burden to my parents anymore financially.
I felt it was my duty from now on to take care of myself even if I wanted to
study further.
I prayed with a lot of faith, got as
much recommendation letters that could help me and sent in my application. Many
weeks passed and it was time to get the results of the scholarship. I was so
excited to open the email but unfortunately, I didn’t get the scholarship. It
felt like my entire life cracked, I was so upset that I wanted to break
something. I really couldn’t understand, what could have gone wrong. I thought
of myself as an eligible candidate for the scholarship, I had the favor of GOD,
it should have been a done deal.
Now I realize, after many years
since this happened, how wrong it is to make our own plan and then ask God's
approval on it. Our GOD is the GOD of wisdom and it is not so wise to trust in
your planning instead of GOD’s planning. Although GOD had done amazing things in my life
and done wonders, I was in way not letting GOD take control of my life. I later learnt that the Christian life is a learning
life. We should always be open to learn about GOD and his relationship with us.
After looking at the email, I was so
confused and I didn’t want to go to Germany anymore. Life almost stopped. I
didn’t have a job like my friends. When I told my parents that I didn’t want to
go to Germany. They were calming me down and said not to worry and asked me not
to think about money but asked to do my higher studies as planned. In a way that was very supportive of them. To
be honest I didn’t expect this. I
couldn’t convince myself to go, but neither did I have a choice as there was
nothing else I could do in India.
Reluctantly I started preparing for
my studies. E.g. admission confirmation, hostel availability, Visa and flight
tickets. The most painful part was to
see my parents struggle to get the money (nearly 8 Lakhs) for my Visa. GOD made a way for my family and me. And I
was on my way to Germany again. During my entire journey in the flight I had
mixed feelings about going there and starting over again. I realized that it
was God's plan from the start. Sometimes He works in mysteries ways. One thing I
did was not be stubborn but gave into the will of GOD.
It was hard to settle in, GOD
provided everything what I needed, whether it was a room, nice class mates,
good surroundings, great place to continue my studies. It took me some time to
accept my situation and go ahead with my life.
GOD again provided all the support for this, good Christian friends and
opportunity to continue in the ministry of GOD at an English-speaking church,
although it took 1.5hour to reach the church every Sunday it was totally worth
that time spending for GOD.
Soon I could get a part time Job at
the University Laboratory as a programmer. In the summer break I got an
internship as a communication engineer at Orange Telecom in Poland and after
that I could get a job at a Software development company. During my second year of Master Studies, I
was employed by these companies and I didn’t need money to pay for my
education, stay and food. When I think about it now, maybe I wouldn’t have
tried to find a student job and end up with so much industrial exposure and
experience, if I had a scholarship. My dream was to do my final year project in
Procter and Gamble and by God's amazing grace I was also able to get this. I had
to work extremely hard to do all the jobs along with my studies. A lot of time
was lost in travelling between all the places. But GOD blessed me with such
good friends to sometimes carry me through this session and He gave the heart
and strength to really put in the effort.
In many occasions I really felt God's
favor on me through different people, when they helped me out, when I was doing
my project at Procter and Gamble. I was reflecting on what if I was stubborn
and stayed in India, perhaps I would have missed all these great experiences. I
understood and learnt about how God's ways would be different from our plans and
all things will work together for good to those who love GOD. By God's amazing
grace I successfully finished my final project with high grades and completed
my subjects on time. Praise GOD
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