“... You saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a man
carries his son, in all the way that you went until you came to this place." - Deuteronomy 1:31
Thirty years have
passed since my birth. Today as I look back into my thirty years of life, I see
God’s Golden Hands of Grace sustaining me to this day. With so much of
gratefulness in my heart I thank Jesus Christ for His abundant grace and love.
My mother always tells
me that God’s grace is overflowing in my life more than everyone in our family.
She is right. I live today because of God’s grace.
I never had any big
dreams about my life. As I grew older every year, my desire kept changing.
Initially I wanted to become a driver then conductor, auto driver and so on.
Whenever I see some people doing something different I thought I will do it. So
many silly dreams I had. When I think about those dreams today, I laugh at
myself.
When I stood and cried
in front of the exam hall where I was supposed to write my Secondary school
final maths exam, I thought I will never pass it. But Jesus Christ gave me full
marks in that exam.
When I failed in the
first year diploma Maths exam, many told me that I will not get my diploma and
even I believed the same. Jesus Christ saw my tears and gave me pass marks and
He also gave me first class diploma.
Once I finished
diploma and joined in a degree course, I felt like as if I am standing before a
huge mountain which I cannot climb. I thought I will never get my degree but
Jesus Christ gave me first class Bachelors degree and also Masters Degree.
How come a guy who had
no knowledge can get a first class Masters degree? To men it’s impossible. But
to God it’s possible.
While pursuing
diploma, I worked for 8 hours daily in a fast food shop and earned Rs. 30, many
said that my life’s status will never improve. Then when I worked in a grocery
shop people told me that my life was gone. Today by the Grace of Jesus Christ I
work in a reputed job in a big organization and earn more than Rs. 50,000 per
month.
When I suffered with
so many physical problems, I was frustrated to have so many problems at the
young age. Though I blamed God several times, He was so patient answering all
my prayers. Soon Jesus Christ healed me completely.
On a particular year,
I went to hospital so many times and took so many medicines. One evening I
cried to Jesus Christ pleading for His help. He saw my tears and gave me His
grace in such a way after that day I never took medicine for more than 3 years.
Whenever I cried to Jesus Christ, He saw my tears and helped me.
There were times I
desired to commit sin and ran for it. As a result guilt filled my heart and
mind. I struggled and thought that there is no way out. Jesus Christ washed me
with His blood and He forgave my sins.
Though I had a great
desire to do something for God, I have not prayed for that many times. But yet
Jesus Christ saw my inner desires and He is using me for His glory to this day.
Jesus Christ gave me
loving parents and brothers who still loves me a lot more than anyone. He gave
me good friend with whom I can share anything without much thought. When I was
about to get married, Jesus Christ spoke to me asking me to wait for His will.
I was not in a position to wait at all. I have my own expectations and I wanted
desperately to go for it. But He made me wait for two years and gave me a
wonderful wife according to His will. I never imagined that I will get a life
partner like that. Through her God blessed my marriage life with peace and
happiness.
There were so many
things Jesus Christ has done in my life so far. Many times I went to His
presence asking me to kill me and take my life. Those were the times I was so frustrated
upon my behaviour. But Jesus Christ was so patient and He taught me so many
good things. He loved me and He still loves me.
In these past thirty
years I have not done anything for the Lord but He has done so many things for
me. Today I have a peaceful life only because of the Grace of Jesus Christ. For
the past thirty years, He carried me, protected me and sustained me. And I know
that His Golden Hands of Grace will continue to carry me in the days to come.
At this juncture, I
thank God wholeheartedly for pouring out His blessing upon an unworthy like me
for the past thirty years. Also I thank Him for His abundant grace which is
leading and guiding me. To God be the Glory.
My dear young friends,
get encouraged. I live today because of the grace of Jesus Christ. The same
Golden Hands of Grace that carried an unworthy, useless and betrayer like me
thus far will also carry you, protect you and sustain you. God bless you.
As we move on, I will
write in this ‘Looking Back’ article about so many miraculous things that God
has done in my life.
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